Here goes with my flows

I am seeing other people in my mind,
They are not me, so my sub conscience feels out of line.
When i picture someone or invest my energy in other beings,
I try to focus my behavior to match their feelings.
But now that I am aware of what I do,
I don't feel down, or unnaturally blue.
I need to refocus my attention on what I want,
And what I truly want to flaunt.
But if i get too invested in the end result,
It will crush onto me, it will be my own fault
For not appreciating what i have, right at this moment
And instead going after other's own fulfillment.
I should instead walk my own internal path,
And seek the way I want, and not feel the wrath.
I use my own internal guidance, it takes me where I want.
Sometimes it helps, to get lower through a blunt.
To understand these things, these complex connected things,
Creates stress and negative understanding, if i don't know my own feelings.
This is why smoking and drinking helps people to understand and look below,
To a nature we don't see, but instead we feel through a flow.
One day we can be up, and the other we can be down,
But it is the goodness of understanding we seek, not the frown.
Because in the end, the knowledge creates awareness,
And awareness uplifts us out of ignorance and into fairness.
To a higher state of being, the next stage or next step,
That gives us perspective, that puts our mind in depth.

Put your mind in depth