Here goes with my flows

I am seeing other people in my mind,
They are not me, so my sub conscience feels out of line.
When i picture someone or invest my energy in other beings,
I try to focus my behavior to match their feelings.
But now that I am aware of what I do,
I don't feel down, or unnaturally blue.
I need to refocus my attention on what I want,
And what I truly want to flaunt.
But if i get too invested in the end result,
It will crush onto me, it will be my own fault
For not appreciating what i have, right at this moment
And instead going after other's own fulfillment.
I should instead walk my own internal path,
And seek the way I want, and not feel the wrath.
I use my own internal guidance, it takes me where I want.
Sometimes it helps, to get lower through a blunt.
To understand these things, these complex connected things,
Creates stress and negative understanding, if i don't know my own feelings.
This is why smoking and drinking helps people to understand and look below,
To a nature we don't see, but instead we feel through a flow.
One day we can be up, and the other we can be down,
But it is the goodness of understanding we seek, not the frown.
Because in the end, the knowledge creates awareness,
And awareness uplifts us out of ignorance and into fairness.
To a higher state of being, the next stage or next step,
That gives us perspective, that puts our mind in depth.

Put your mind in depth

Is it really stupidity?

My previous posts have been quite down and unaligned, but for this post I hope to reconnect with what is truly trying to come out in expression and words. So I hope to have the following post and all future posts be primarily self supported therapies that I have listened to from the source that lies beneath. Be it God, be it Earth, be it my internal genetics, be it whatever you want. The fact is, these messages and therapies, through poetic rhythm, have helped me to better understand myself whenever I feel confused, down, depressed or generally without direction. Please don't take it as depression or self loathing. It is not my intent to focus on negativity. Instead, it is real time poetry that is derived from seeking awareness in my own soul and psyche. So if you would like a first person perspective on exploring one's soul and personally escaping ignorance, evil and other forms of close-mindedness or pain, then read on and enjoy.